11 WEEKS!

I only have 2 maternity shirts thus far so I'm sure
they will be making frequent appearances here.  :)

I have now completed 11 weeks of pregnancy.  Yay!  My belly is starting to grow and fill out even more. I'm pretty sure I am undeniably pregnant looking at this point.  Which is good, way better than slightly chubby looking.  I am beginning to feel less and less sick.  I only had to take meds a couple of times in the last week.  My morning sickness seems to have gone away and now I only have evening sickness.  Every day around dinner time I get super nauseas.  During the rest of the day though, it's manageable, as long as I eat the right stuff at the right time.

I have an appt. with a midwife here in Austin so I can have my thyroid levels checked asap.  She'll do a prenatal visit as well so it will be fun to get to hear my baby's heartbeat again.  I am so excited to move on to this next phase of pregnancy.  My baby will be growing very quickly and soon I'll be able to feel him/her moving around inside of me.  That's always my favorite part of pregnancy.  I can't wait!

10 down, 30 to go. . .

I am now 1/4 of the way through my pregnancy!  Hooray!  It sounds like a lot when I put it that way.  My baby is now officially a fetus with all it's vital organs formed and beginning to function.  Only 8 weeks and I get to find out my baby's gender.  I cannot wait!  I seem to be beginning to have less morning sickness now and don't need to take my meds quite as often.  Which is a good thing cuz it gives me horrid headaches.  I'm still counting down till my 1st trimester ends and hopefully the nausea calms down permanently.  Just 3.5 weeks till then.

We have decided to move back to Utah and we are focusing a lot of our attention on that right now which helps time pass for me.  I am so excited to be with family again and experience the pregnancy milestones with them.  I'm so thrilled that my baby will know its extended family.  I can't wait to have Suzanne for a midwife again.  I am just anxious for everything to work out as quickly as possible!  I have a feeling life is about to get a whoooooole lot busier.

Alright, I guess it's time for the 9 weeks post.

The past week has been filled with ups and downs.  I thrived on my medicine for a few glorious days, and then it stopped working and I started puking again.  That wasn't fun.  So I got some Zofran.  I'm no longer throwing up and I have somewhat of an appetite, but I do feel nauseas.  Quite nauseas.  I guess that's how this medicine works.  Take off the edge and stop the puke.  I'll take it!

Mornings are going well for me.  I wake up with energy and drive.  I get as much done as I can during that time.  I've been really busy preparing for and teaching joy school and it's been really fun.  I spend a good part of the morning getting the kids ready and off to school with help from Justin (thank goodness).  I've been grocery shopping and cleaning in the mornings.  Unfortunately, morning passes and hell begins.  Around 2:30 I start to feel miserably sick and soooo tired.  Every day that passes brings me a day closer to my 2nd trimester and I can't wait!  Clearly, patience is a lesson God would have me learn.  I'm trying!

Jacob spent some time snuggling my belly yesterday.  It's so so nice to have him hug and kiss "the baby."  It's not so nice when he tells me how squishy it is.  :)  When the kids got home from school yesterday he told Everett, "Our baby's gonna come out!"  Ah, someday!  He tells me there's a baby inside of him too.  Not sure how to break the news to him that that's never going to happen.  I guess he'll figure it out in time.  I bought him a little baby doll and he has fun pretending it's talking and walking.  I showed him how to hold it gently and he really loved that.

Everett doesn't show a ton of interest but does sometimes talk about the babe.  He is happy about it but very busy in his own world of Kindergarten, reading, and time on the Wii!  Charity is more willing to help me, knowing that I don't feel well.  She is excited for the baby but also understands that it takes a loooong time so she's not very focused on it yet.

Justin is still a huge help to me despite being very busy with work and other various projects.  He is probably starting to get bored with his sick wife who never wants to leave the house in the evenings and falls asleep by 9 without fail.  The smell of his shampoo, deodorant, skin, breath, hair, etc. gives me goose bumps (not in a good way) so he's probably sick of feeling like the black plague.  He is a good and patient husband and I can't wait to feel better so I can pull my own weight around here!

This week was better than last and I'm hoping next week is even better!  I came across an AWESOME site that shows amazing photos of fetal development.  Check it out: http://www.ehd.org/prenatal-images.php?thum_id=358  I didn't know my baby was so cute already!  Hooray!

I realize it's a horrid picture but that's what you get when you take a picture of yourself in a dirty bathroom mirror with the flash on.  The bump is clearly visible so I'm okay with it.  :)

8 Weeks

Today I am 8 weeks pregnant!  That's 2 months.  Hooray!  As I pondered over this past week I thought, "How am I going to write about this week and stay true to my blog's title.  I honestly don't know how to take a positive spin on what was an awful week."  I spent a lot of time becoming intimately acquainted with my toilet bowl.  I felt miserable.  I was dehydrated, dizzy, nauseas, exhausted, and emotionally overwhelmed.  I lost 5 lbs just last week.  BUT THEN. . . two wonderful things happened.

First of all, I had an ultrasound and got to see my little babe.  When I showed up at the dr. I had no idea they planned to give me an ultrasound and wasn't interested in getting one, but they insisted that in order to see the dr., they had to give me one.  "After all", the nurse said, "we don't even know you are pregnant."  Hello!  Pee test!  Anyway, at first I was upset and then I got over it and just wanted to get it done so I could see the dr.  I'm really glad I did because seeing my baby was amazing.  I could see and hear it's tiny heart beating.  It doesn't even have clearly defined arms and legs yet, but still, something about seeing my baby made me love it.  I felt instantly that all of the difficulty I have had is so worth it.  It was so rewarding to see what all of this sickness is going toward: the creation of a human being!  It blows my mind.

Secondly, after my ultrasound, I visited with the dr. and he prescribed me some meds to help with my nausea and vomiting.  HOO freaking RAY!  I can't stress how ecstatic that makes me.  I took a pill yesterday and one today and so far today has been pretty good.  Am I still nauseas?  Oh yeah, but I actually had an appetite this morning and I was able to eat breakfast, enjoy it, and keep it down.  I am thrilled.  I am very optimistic that this medicine will make things bearable for the remainder of this first trimester until I'm feeling good enough on my own to eat what this baby needs.

So there you have it, still trying to take a positive approach.  :)

7 weeks. . .and counting.

This week has been, to put it lightly, a rough one.  I have felt so so so very sick.  This Sunday around lunch time, my tooth started aching.  It started out a little sore, and within an hour I was moaning and writhing around in pain.  Justin tried calling a million dentists and no one would see me because it was after hours and I was not a patient.  I ended up taking percocet because I was in so much pain.  Anyone who knows me well knows that it must have been serious because I hate taking medicine unless absolutely necessary.  Every six hours on the dot I needed another pill all through Sunday and Sunday night.  The next day, Justin stayed home to watch the kids while I went to see the dentist.  I hurled up both my breakfast and lunch (I know you wanted to know that), and could barely eat dinner.  I'm hoping it was just the after-effects of percocet that made me so nauseas and not just pregnancy because a pregnant girl has got to eat.  At the dentist I found out that I need a root canal and a $1200 crown!  Holy Schneikies!  Basically it was a terrible, awful, no good, very bad weekend.

However, I woke up this morning feeling okay.  I drank a protein shake for breakfast and still felt okay.  I took Jacob to his first day of preschool and still felt okay.  I ate lunch at torchy's and still felt okay.  I went to a meeting, went to the store, and picked up Jacob, and I still feel okay!  Hooray!  I think feeling so awful over the weekend has really put things in perspective for me.  It could always be worse and I'm grateful that I'm only feeling as sick as I am, because I know there could be a million things piled on top of it and today, there aren't.  I'm feeling pretty optimistic at the moment.

I am so so grateful for Justin.  I feel like he's my mommy right now.  :)  He does everything for me when I'm not feeling well.  Grocery shopping, cooking, cleaning, child care, making me tea every day, serving me food (no small task when I'm feeling so picky), making appointments for me, doing all he can to get the kids ready for school, scratching my back, entertaining me AND kicking butt at his full time job and free lance work, among other things.  Thank you honey!  I love you so much and can't wait till I feel well enough to return the favor.  I'm also grateful for great friends who have sympathized, cooked dinner, and watched kids for me.  You know who you are.  Thank you!

When things were hard this weekend I had a really hard time focusing on the fact that at the end of this pregnancy, I get to have another amazing child.  Today while I was driving back from Jacob's preschool, I felt so so excited just thinking about how wonderful it is going to be to hold my sweet baby.  It's going to be so fun to see Charity, Everett, and Jacob greet a new sibling.  I can't wait to see how our lives change.  I know things won't be perfect, but another member of our family=more love.  More love is always a wonderful thing!

I lost a couple pounds this week with all the sickness, but the baby bump is still coming along nicely!

6 weeks preggo

Our baby is about the size of a small pea now.

I'm feeling human enough to sit down and type a blog post real quick.  Tomorrow I'll be 6 weeks pregnant.  They say morning sickness is supposed to start about now but, for me, it's already in full swing.  Everything makes me sick.  Good smells, bad smells, any taste, even certain words make me ill.  I'm trying really hard to be positive still and force myself to smile and say how happy I am or how much I love whatever I'm eating.  That helps a little.  The kids are about to start school and I have a million and one things to do so I think I will be sufficiently distracted over the next week to not go completely crazy.  I know that looking back, this time will have flown by.  

I have my first appointment with a midwife tomorrow so that is something exciting to look forward to!   I can't wait to hear a heart beat, see an ultrasound, and ultimately, have my baby in my arms! 

Baby #4 Week #6

I have now completed 5 weeks of pregnancy.  I am really starting to feel pregnant now.  I wake up starving and nauseated and still feeling exhausted.  I have strange cravings and aversions.  I never want to eat chicken again.  Yesterday I wanted to eat freshly cooked pasta with nothing on top.  From lunch till after dinner seems to be my sickest time of day.  I'm bloated beyond belief.  If I relax my tummy completely, I look 5 months pregnant rather than 5 weeks.  I'm exhausted.  I have strange and vivid dreams.  My back hurts.  I have had lots of cramps.  I'm exhausted.  I have heartburn.  I'm exhausted.  Oh, did I mention I'm exhausted?  :)

They say you show sooner with each pregnancy.  I'm living proof.

Justin and I get excited with each new symptom that comes along.  What we've prayed and hoped for for so long is finally here!  We had family come to visit last week and decided that we would tell them the good news but we wanted to tell our kids first so when Justin said our bed time prayer, he thanked Heavenly Father for several blessings, each of our kids, our home, and the last thing he mentioned was that he was grateful that mommy is pregnant and we are going to have a new brother or sister in our family.  Charity was thrilled, Everett was mildly interested, and Jacob didn't seem to understand at all.  Despite their different reactions, when the big day comes, I know they are all going to be wonderful older siblings to their little brother or sister.

We told Justin's mom and sisters, my sisters and Daryl and all of their kids.  Everyone seemed happy and excited!  My side of the family hasn't had a new baby for a while.  Jacob was the last one and that was almost 3 years ago.  We had tons of fun having our family in town although I probably wasn't the best hostess, napping during the day and going to bed early at night.

We are enjoying thinking about baby names and already wondering about our baby's gender.  Charity says she doesn't care if it's a boy or a girl, as long as it's tiny.  Hopefully she won't be too disappointed if I bust out a 13 pounder.  Let's pray that doesn't happen.  :)

I found out from my endocrinologist that my Vitamin D is low so I'm trying to get an appt. with a midwife asap so I can get a good prescription to bring my levels up.  I'll be meeting with my endo once a month during this first trimester to make sure my thyroid levels are in check.

There is soooo much to do before the birth of this baby.  I got rid of all my baby stuff (thinking I was done having kids), so I have to buy everything all over again.  Our car seats 5 and we will soon be a family of 6 so we've got some serious saving to do.  It's a bit stressful to have so much to buy but it's also exciting.  I'm excited to get new maternity clothes and to buy cute new baby stuff.  I'm thrilled to be working toward getting a van with lots of room for our growing family.

Although pregnancy can be rough and feeling sick is never fun, I am thrilled to be pregnant again and hope I can stay positive and create some good memories.

Jacob and I sweating our guts out at Sea World last week.  You can see how thrilled he is.  :)